The Dynamo of Volition | Jason Mraz

“Our lives are not as limited as we think they are; the world is a wonderfully weird place; consensual reality is significantly flawed; no institution can be trusted, but love does work; all things are possible; and we all could be happy and fulfilled if we only had the guts to be truly free and the wisdom to shrink our egos and quit taking ourselves so damn seriously.”

— Tom Robbins

It's just another one of those dark, chilly nights, the air balmy & significantly cooler from the rain; perfect for the fact that I'm planning to stay up to reset my ever messed up body clock. With me is a piping hot mug of extra strong kopi-O, and a few packets of instant teh-tarik if I find that the coffee isn't enough to keep me awake. I've been in this situation many times before - downing cups of coffee & teh-tarik in the hopes of staying up all night - but most times I succumb to blissful slumber by the time dawn breaks (which defeats the whole purpose). So far it's perked me up just a little bit, and I can feel my body slowly getting jittery - I can feel it growing from the pit of my stomach, where it will creep up my back, then to my chest, before finally I'll start bouncing off the walls in pure hyperactivity. Though it's effective, it will only last an hour max, which means I'll have to have a few fixes to get me through the entire night; thus the cycle repeats itself. Not that I mind in the least; I'd do anything at this point to be able to see the sunlight lol. I just hope that I don't fall asleep in the dentist's chair tomorrow afternoon due to my lack of sleep. Gah!

Speaking of which, I am not looking forward to tomorrow's dentist appointment. I'm not usually a scaredy-cat, but the stories I've heard have slightly put me off what I'm planning to do. Thank goodness I have nothing laid out for this week, so that if it is as bad as what people have been telling me, I have the whole week to just curl up in a corner in self-pity and hopefully recover by Raya; though, I heard the effects could last up to a month, and if so, I am screwed!